The Dynamic Of Life

To be the devil is to be alive. It sounds like there are some free mason ideas here too. It's very interesting.
The idea of following your bliss... If I did exactly as I wanted I would quit my job and move to San Francisco right now... So is that what I should do? I struggle with the idea of being selfish. Are all the great things I have meaningless because they were not my choice to have... but they are mine. Every choice... even in the not making was made. Haha the paradox of free will and consciousness.

I have to let somethings go. I can not take care of everyone. I'm just getting the hang of taking care of myself. Really taking care of myself. I can feel my third eye blinking. It's not going to be blind forever.